The music of the heart

Today I listened to the music, Today I listened to one of the songs I am most attached to after two years. Today I listened to the music of the Heart.

Since I’ve been deaf and it’s been almost two years, my relationship with music has changed. To be more precise, I would say that it has ceased. When deaf the sounds are different, it is difficult to understand words, understand people, let alone hear sounds, a melody a song.

So I avoided the problem. I had put the music closed in the jukebox and I had put it in the cellar (even in the attic is fine), in short, the concept is that.

There were maybe two / three episodes where the music surprised me.

The first episode I was in the car with her husband (Easter 2021) and I recognized Coldplay’s VIVA LA VIDA. It was a surprise and I wasn’t used to it. I thought I had improved with the speech therapy sessions, that I could still do it anyway. Then after two days I was rushed to hospital again because the inflammation had started again and obviously it also affected the acoustic nerve, so nothing. finished music.

The second time in September, returning from control in Milan. I was agitated and nervous. The pain was back and I was afraid the doctors would decide to give me a new round of chemo. Luckily no … and then in the car I started humming Mina or Battisti … I don’t remember (what brain I have).

The third time in the car with her husband, a few days after the episode above, where he told me that there was a song on the radio (even there I don’t remember which one) … but I remember the shit part that I did, for telling me about the song. My usual five minutes. In which I told him that I could not hear the noise of the car, the windows open, I had tinnitus … I had my balls turned in short. But I must say that I am very good at outbursts of anger and in saying things by grumbling and screaming.

And then we come to yesterday. Yesterday I went for a walk in Covent Garden (my favorite place in London) .. I got lost in the streets and wandered among the shops, I got ice cream from Badiani, I went shopping (which is always good) from Zara, and I went to the SHISEIDO POPUP …. in short, I was free.

And I went home and started humming CANDYMAN in Christina Aguilera’s version. (Even there then I think my brain how the hell does it think about these things).

And then today. I did the speech therapy lessons and talking to Cate I told her about yesterday’s song … so that the music slowly came back into my mind.

After the lesson I was at the PC and I took courage. GOOGLE – YOUTUBE – DREAMS CRAMBERRIES – PLAY.

I cried. I recognized that song, sang it silently, with tears in my eyes. It’s a song that I discovered late, .. (compared to the release of the album eh) I made it mine, it reminds me of the moments with her husband, of the things I did. With that song played on the violin I entered the church on my father’s arm on the wedding day.

I finished the song and immediately started writing the article.

And here we are.

The music is back. I have other songs in my heart, I have so much music to be able to listen to again. For now I start with one song a day … (or almost in short), … then we will see how to deal with the new songs.

Meanwhile, sordamaldestra wins on the straight-leg jukebox!