Pebbles in your shoes

Pebbles in shoes are annoying. They are those things that bother you and annoy you but you can bear them … maybe you walk a little badly but you do it. Then you get to the point where you get tired of the pebble in the shoe, stop and take it out.

Here is this happening for me with people.

It is the fault (but it is not the fault, it is merit) of the disease. As a sick person you see things from a different, very different perspective.

I haven’t gotten better, I’ve gotten even more selfish towards myself. In a positive sense it is obvious. I have always tried to do the things I wanted, that I wanted to do, even if at times I compromised.

Now, after you understand what it means to really feel bad, you feel it on your skin, that at some point you find yourself there and think “but am I dying today or tomorrow?that is … do I get out of this situation or not? “, you understand that you don’t care about education, that you don’t want compromises, that you don’t care what other people think of you and you understand who cares about you.

Directly proportional rules.

You discover generosity, affection in people you did not believe, and you are disappointed in others, for whom you expected a different behavior, not better or worse, just different.

They are impressions and sensations that remain inside you and at least for me, it is not even worth taking it or making a scene.

The pebbles in your shoes should be understood as something positive, which makes you understand the weight of things and the weight you have for others.

Doing what we like, what we can and above all what we want to do is the central point of living peacefully.But sometimes out of politeness, in order not to disappoint others, we forget about these concepts and do things unwillingly and maybe even angry and snorting.

Here, with the disease selfishness towards oneself has taken over, and of this I must be proud.

Slowly I’m finding myself, changed … I don’t know if for better or for worse.

We will try to find out.