October

We are in October, … autumn, cold, dark soon, I change now … in short, what a bad time … but no!

If anything, these thoughts are made in November, a really bad month … but not in October!

Except that for me October is my biggest defeat, a year ago I went deaf. It was now the 22nd of October, but anyway these days I’m thinking about how I was a year ago … when I was sick, the pain was back … I was about to be hospitalized again, undergo surgery (the first of four ) and go deaf …

Writer’s block … or better now writer’s block …

In short, bad thoughts that are coming to mind … October … well … I also liked him as a month, before last year.

There were the first leaves, it was still possible to stay out for dinner, the sun during the day … all things that made us think of summer and not yet of winter and cold.

Today, however, for me October is synonymous with loss … of a me that will no longer exist, of a pain and suffering that could have been avoided … I don’t know.

For now, however, I’m thinking about how to celebrate this anniversary.

I don’t want to make him sad, or cry any moreI could go shopping, or organize a nice dinner out …

I have to think about it. After all, it was around the twentieth of October that everything happened …

I still have some time to decide and think.

.