The effect of the time

Here I am, some time has passed… maybe too much. I missed my moments of writing thoughts. The effect of time or the effect of November?

The effect of time, because it passed quickly. The month that reminds me of my deafness has passed, but November isn’t a joke either, you know… Three years ago, I was in complete silence. I was waiting to undergo the cochlear implant surgery. I remember it was scheduled towards the end of the month, but when I was hospitalized, I had a minor cold sore, and that was it… the operation got postponed.

I remember the anger during that journey back home… Operation postponed for another two weeks. They operated on me on December 6th, activated it a few days later. Hospitalized again on the 23rd.

Alright, moving on…

The effect of time, how am I now? I don’t even know myself… these last few days, I’ve been studying for some interviews, which I actually did quite well in. In fact, I surprised myself.

But the negative thoughts are always there because check-ups for both the ear and the head are scheduled. I had the MRI a few days ago to see where I’m at… the therapy in two weeks always makes me anxious.

Fatigue, what was there and what wasn’t.

But it’s not the effect of time, it’s the effect of the cold. Exactly because it’s November. Now, I’ll be back in Italy for a while… there will be a different effect, even if it’s cold.